Am I famished at all?

"But really — am I ever hungry at all?

What kind of appetite do I really have for Christ?

I mean, when I have to choose between a title from the stack of library books, or reading another chapter of Scripture? When we could discuss another verse during family devotions or I could check in with email, try to catch up? When I could pause and pray and enter into conversation with Christ — or I could pick up the phone and call my sister while I stir the soup?

Am I famished at all?"

After two very difficult days, I read these words of Ann Voskamp today on her blog 'a holy experience' and I was cut to the quick, the searing of the truth. I don't have words, my heart is broken. 

 Belief is not merely an agreement with facts in the head, it is also an appetite for God in the heart, which fastens on Jesus for satisfaction. …

Therefore  eternal life is not given to people who merely think that Jesus is the Son of God.

It is given to people who drink from Jesus as the Son of God… The point of these images of drinking and eating is to make clear the essence of faith. It is more than believing that there is such a thing as water and food.

Faith is coming to Jesus and drinking the water and eating the food so that we find our hearts satisfied in Him.

~ John Piper, Future Grace